who am i?

who am i? who do you think i am? all of you. every single one of you. tell me

who do u think i am? cus i dont no anymore

there are so very very very many mes, all varition of each other, all akward but all diffrent

and maybe. just maybe. if you tell me who you think i am, i can work it out and then i can tell you, tell you all who i am. and thats something id really like to do

you two faced back stabbing bitch! i love you for being you so shut up your face!

its been awhile

so busy right nowww

and my parents

my blooddy parents

nagging me to move schools

well im sorry i dont want too

i dont no why i dont

but i dont i have no reason to stay nothing to hold me down to wenona

but hey

i dont want ot be bossed around

even though i would probably be happier anywhere else

ecxpt QW

cus that would hurt alot

to have you ignore me

cus im a little year8 and i embarisee you

no no no i could nottt do thattt

it would kill me

just like other things kill me

too no that im only a back up, a person that can take a back seat ive seen it all before

and no i wont let it happen again

never again

one good thing

and hes all mineee

my baby boy

i love that feeling

when i got get him

when i brush hime

wen i do anything

i whatches me

and gives m a specil little look he saves just for me

i know he loves me

but even thats bad

a silver cloud with a black linning

im scared shes gonna take him away

cus then

i would die

or run away either or

so pretty much life sucks

and i dont want to go back to school

to go back to being so fucking sad and lonely\

aah well

thats the way of the world

the weak get trampled

flying

jump

a single moment suspended in time

that wonderful secong of silecne

all i want

is to hang out with my mum

to have fun with a couple of my bestfriends

to ride and ride and ride

but no one else seems to want that

they all want to hate each other

and me

and some times i cant help but hate them

i cant help it

but im gonna try and stop i think

but i dont want to party

i dont want to grow up

sorry if this makes no sense

is it sad that sebastian lax is the only person i seem to be able/be bothered with talk to any more

i dont no

but he give fucking good advice

and he gets it

and he actually want to talk to me

which is a big thing at the moment seeing as he's just about the only friend i have

and he listens it good

hes like the twin i never had

i wish i had a twin...

things to learn

a list of things to learn

- when to hold back

- when not hold back

- when to tell everyone

- when not to tell everyone

- when to trust

- how to trust

- how to be prepared for anything

- when not to trust and forgive because i know that i will just get hurt over and over again

- what to do

- how to love

- when to love

- how to commit

- how not to run screaming from any relashionship

- how not to hate to much

- how to hate a little

- how to live without you (happily would be a bonus)

- how to live with you (happily would be a bonus)

thing i will learn over the holidays